I was assaulted again today. It’s been well over a hundred times I think the past few years.

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      9 days ago

      I’m currently trying to get permission to speak, which I think would be helpful. This generally follows me where I go too.

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        Maybe there is a Buddhist temple where you could access some mental health resources? people that understand the world you live in?

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          9 days ago

          I’m trying to get permission/ability to speak here - this violence is in response to me doing so.

          No, that isn’t what I meant.

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              I’m being targeted with genocide, such that it can become dangerous just me speaking/being in places. I often report on misconduct in my experience. Because of this, I am requesting permission, because I’m unsure if that’s going to be too much for people. I recently read the article "Bisbee Deportation" on Wikipedia, which I think is a part of the context.

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                My friend. You as an individual cannot be targeted with genocide. Genocide is the erasure of a whole cultural identity.

                That’s another linguistic oddity you’re using that I think is upsetting people to be hostile against you.

                It sounds like you’re being harassed and that’s terrible that you’re experiencing that kind of violence.

                Is this danger around speaking, is it something that’s happening to you in real life or just online? It sounds like something bad is happening to you in real life, but I think these issues your having for which you’re asking for permission to speak is caused by your linguistic oddities.

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                  Genocide affects groups & individuals, and doesn’t require a total erasure. Bahanna culture is tattered & stained with past & ongoing genocides, as well as mass-destruction of animals. Regarding ‘the five precepts’ in Buddhism, Bahanna culture seems addicted to killing, stealing, sexual-misconduct, dishonesty, & alcohol. I regard the word ‘Bahanna’ (etymology: borrowed from Hopi) qua essential gift. There’s odd, & there’s evil/unskillful.

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                  There’s an LGBTQ reading of the film Toy Story (1995) that I’m unsure has been considered. One element is how “to infinity and beyond” references the transfinite numbers; there’s allusion to Alan Turing, and AI is a topic.

                  The HDMI port still works on this Chromebook, despite the built-in screen being unusable. Though, this was supposed to be a temporary while a Linux laptop that was destroyed in violence was being replaced; that Linux laptop that was destroyed was a replacement for another that was destroyed in violence, which was a replacement I paid for from one that was stolen from me, which was a replacement for an old laptop I needed to abandon when entering homelessness. I’m requesting my father/family to replace it, which I think is appropriate. Though, there’s a higher issue of an intolerance toward generosity. I’m of the view of so-called Dharmic religions (e.g. Buddhism) that there is an underlying law of karma such that generosity results in karmic merit that guarantees pleasant results. Everything I do in my career I offer freely. Money often seems like virtue training wheels, and it’s bothersome to even have to regard. I took vows several years ago to refrain from handling tangible currencies (e.g. cash or cards), and to refrain from entering commercial buildings.

                  I have a roughly 10ft by 10ft porch attached to a 10ft by 10ft open yard area. Following ethics of abstaining from killing beings & abstaining from destroying plant life has lead to designing the back yard qua ecological refuge/shrine, qua bodhisattva. I’m wanting to request advice & material support regarding some of the modules & micro-modules, as future posts - e.g. lining the small hanging solar-powered bird(/insect) bath with sepum & elfin thyme. More immediately, I really need the Linux laptop replaced and for my bike to be repaired.