Everyone else but me is a moron.

In not sure anyone knows what the rules are. The more I talk to people and learn how they go through life the more I realize everyone is really different, I assume they generally do what they learn from their parants. Like things that should go in the fridge vs not is a whole thing

The people that “made the rules” knew exactly what they were doing. It’s silly to think otherwise. The intentions and goals just did not align with the masses. The system is working perfectly for their children and their children’s children.

Don’t assume stupidity is the answer for a system more easily understood by maintaining power and material benefit for a specific class. All that does is give you a sense of a intellectual victory that is meaningless in obtaining, what you really need, a material one.

I haven’t told many people at work about being autistic. I think my boss and only a few other people really know. Normally, as my work rarely includes human interactions, I don’t have many problems; most of the human contact is with few people and they understood a while ago that I don’t have so-called filters when it comes to certain things, so they learnt to accept my straightforward mind when I speak about anything without even considering that I’m ND.

However, today I’m about to make my autism an everyone’s problem.

I’ve been invited to the typical “department christmas dinner” (mandatory fun! yay!). I tried to politely refuse saying that I don’t like the proposed menu of the restaurant and that I don’t feel like going because I don’t like these events. They’ve been insisting in making me go because they can’t accept a polite “no” as an answer. Well, I’m about to do a coming out and make everyone uncomfortable about why I’m not going explaining that my autism makes being among many people in a loud and flashy environment really difficult for me and the fixed menu they chose include things that would make me puke if I tried to eat them. Can’t wait to make them feel embarrassed for not having accepted my answer when I politely declined to go.

I also don’t know how to act my age because I’ve never been this old before.

I don’t think I ever knew what the expectations were. I’ve always been the weird odd one out and I’ve always been made aware of it. I don’t work any more, so I just do what I do and don’t care what anyone else thinks.

“I reject your reality and substitute my own”

-My future T-shirt

I try to fit it in too but some expected behaviors are so nonsensical I can’t follow them. For instance, staying in the theater until the very end of the credit roll. I know people do it out of respect, but it’s not like they’re gonna remember any of the crew’s names. Oh and I can’t ask people how are you doing because I expect an honest answer.

Suppose to do life at work, yes. Outside of there, I don’t give a damn what you think!