I just really hate how my friends label me as a child, they are not 100% NT but way less autistic than me, yesterday she admitted they viewed me as a child, at first she stated that she viewed all of her peers as children since she felt she had more lived experience which is fine she can do whatever she wants. but then we met a new friend who she took a liking to and who she views as an adult, and recently on the way home our friend group got to talking about something and I asked something jokingly. She said rather seriously “Sky, there are some things that stay between adults” I reply I am legitimately a year older than you, she then said rather seriously not in any of the ways that matter. In general, there have been plenty of other times I felt like I was treated as a child, and generally, she and others have capped the level of closeness they have with me to protect me, which in practice only creates an environment where I do not have any close friends at all, I legit usually sob to myself in my room when and think about killing myself. I also understand I am a failure by most traditional metrics, no job, no car, no place, I have been trying to get a job for over 8 months, I wrecked my car 6 months ago, but I am not a fucking child.

I regularly feel like people pretend to be interested in what I am saying since I am being viewed a child and most people do not want to be mean to a child, I just feel like such a loser in general and I really hate the fact I am autistic which is 100% why this keeps happening.

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    2 months ago

    I just feel like such a loser in general and I really hate the fact I am autistic which is 100% why this keeps happening.

    That is the reason why it keeps happening and the only thing you can do about it to only associate with people that treat you with respect.

    Making a change that ensures a respectful equilibrium will both ensure that you’re treated with respect and allow for THOROUGHLY clueless people to try to help you.

    Not that the neurotypicals know any better; it’s just that you fit into a mold that they’re familiar with and they will forever cast you in that mold; so long as you’re willing to only accept help from neurotypicals.

    BE WARNED!!!: non-neurotypicals are THOROUGHLY more clueless about the world than anyone else; including neurotypicals.