100%, music. Get on a music service (not a video service like YouTube) and go listen to genres of music that feel good.
Music that you liked when you were 13
When you were 21, music that reminds you of the good times
Or music that fits how you feel…
Seriously, don’t underestimate the power of music. It’s literally like magic and has the power to heal, inspire, distract, inform, validate, remind, transport, stimulate, numb, etc… I became a musician because I wanted to help people through hard times and to be better people, because I realized how powerful and important it is.
Go try old stuff, too, like bob dylan. Or go listen to Linkin Park again like it’s 2003. Or go listen through the entire nutcracker suite by Tchaikovsky (i suggest looking for the decca phase 4 London festival orchestra worth robert sharples that was recorded in the 60s https://youtu.be/S7VrwRJ4t-Y?si=cmLUTdUAmg2jw7kr i think it’s the one, I’m not sure on my phone where it is on spotify). Or if you want to listen to the same song over and over and that feels good to you, then that’s what you should be doing.
Just keep searching and following the good feelings and don’t give up, like trying new sexual stuff and not trying for a specific outcome but allowing yourself to be in the moment and feel then sensations.
And feel your feelings. Just find someplace safe, get a good sound source, and let it all rip… if you feel like crying, cry. If you feel like being mad, be mad. You have to actually process your feelings.
A wise man once said to me, “there’s no bad music, only bad timing”. If it feels off or wrong, just switch it. It takes courage to try something different sometimes, though, so try not sweat it too much either way, and just remember to breathe.
Cpa worked good but made me depressed and suicidal so i switched. Spiro worked fine but smells weird and you should avoid potassium iirc. Never took bica before i went on monotherapy.
Drink more water if you have to continue being an alcoholic. For every beer or “drink”'s worth of alcohol, try to drink like 8oz of plain water. You’ll be drunk as a fish and you can still enjoy your depression shakes, but also hydrated so your skin won’t be as shit, your brain won’t be as shriveled, and you’ll smell less bad. So if you want to down a fifth or something stupid, you have to mix it with 135oz of water to drink it. A lot of people’s health problems and age rates are from UV damage, malnourishment, and dehydration, and alcohol is a diuretic.
I know it’s kind of a chicken/egg sitch, but you should do everything you can to chase happiness and know yourself better before you expire. I think you deciding to transition is proof that you’re already doing that and you should believe in yourself rather than berate yourself for somebody else’s malice and choice to steal. I believe in you and know you can do it. Keep going, onwards and upwards.