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I do for certain local mom and pop places because then they remember me and give me extra fries/rice/extras and orders seem to go a little faster. With a chain, nah.

Depending on who it is, I either ask them how they’ve been, apologize for who I was back then, or turn 360° and moonwalk out of there

Sometimes it is, but that’s part of why it’s so valuable.

Face scrubber. I was given a small crocheted dish scrubber - sort of like these - made from very soft tulle. It’s too soft to be effective on dishes, but it works perfectly on my face.

Serious question for you OP and I ask it in a spirit of… possible solidarity? Anyway: I tend to word things clumsily, flub delicate social situations, and just generally put my foot in my mouth at the worst possible time. It’s worse in high pressure situations. Are you like this too, and if so, do you worry a lot about unintentionally sabotaging your livelihood or relationships?

I still occasionally do this if I am on the phone with someone and need something to do with my hands that doesn’t take much brain power or make any noise.

Tell me about it. My brain shows up at 3am with my life’s blooper reel full box set on Blu-ray and a bucket of popcorn but is nowhere to be seen when it’s time to remember where my other pants went.

Somewhat. I still have some of the visual images in my head, but the memory of how I felt at those times is gone or very faded. Often the memories feel, not exactly dreamlike, but like I am looking at a diorama or one of those paperweights that has a scene encased in resin, forever visible but inaccessible.

I’ve started to forget my dad’s voice a bit and it scares me. I don’t want to forget anything about him ever.

My therapist said that you don’t really remember things, you just remember the last time you remembered them. Like a copy of a copy. And that’s how memories get distorted over time. So it’s like, am I ruining those memories by remembering them, like a tape you play over and over til you wear it out? Or should I play the tapes anyway in case I hit my head or have a stroke or something and lose a bunch of them?

I prefer to journal by hand, mainly because journaling on the computer feels unnatural somehow. But I can’t write more than 1-2 pages before my hand cramps up.