

Depression is so very hard. Its unbelievably hard. I spent most of my life depressed. 13 to 50. Not being depressed is weird. I don’t know who to live without it. I tried drugs, they made it worse. Suicidal tendencies made it hard to take drugs. My first break was laughing at a kids movie, it was a real laugh. I broke down and cried. It was the beginning of getting rid of depression. Maybe 10 years before I was out of it. Things slowly changed. Lines like, “it is what it is,” helped. I work on mindfulness. I avoid thinking about anything that has negative emotions. Really, I avoid thinking. Mostly, you need to change the way you think and behave. I am not the person I was. I act and do things differently. Be willing to change anything to get out of it. Fear of change kept me in it for a long time. Good luck. You are not alone. You might be able to become a survivor. Keep trying.
I’d try raising the temp on the heat bed and maybe on the extrusion for the first layer.
The bed arcs up in the middle when it heats, so it may also be an issue with z offset. If it is 0.35 in the middle, but 0.45 at the edge, you might just need to smoosh the first layer more. Speed also effects first layer, so slowing down sometimes helps.
Find a big flat one layer test print and see what helps. Just don’t doal bunch of changes at once.