Dk the correct place to post this but……Yh
I feel like 💩 everyday. The ugly duckling out of my sisters. The freak of the family.
I hate feeling too ugly to actually do anything everyday. See anyone one…and like I’m just wasting my life away
I hope I get approved for it. It feels a bit like The Substance and that movie freaked me out.
Any info on the topic would be helpful especially if you have personal experience or are in a similar boat.
Edit: a few months ago I was talking with my brother who’s a couple yrs younger about taking testosterone cuz I saw a video of a gym girl saying she’d taken it and thought it might help me and he said best not to cuz once you take it you can never say you’re “natty”…
Gender affirming care is important (for cis or trans people) but it won’t cure mental things like that. Many many trans people still think there hideous even with highest amounts of estrogen and zero testosterone. If it’s low in your system that can help you physically but not mentally. In my own honest opinion of someone who has seen a therapist (or psychotherapist) is to go see one of its that bad. Get one that listens and responses to you.
Estrogen most likely will not solve that problem. I still feel like you describe after 15 years in estrogen and yet everyone says I don’t look at all like a guy anymore. Don’t blame yourself for societies failures on people who are not “perfect” looking.
I have done counselling with a few different counsellors but I think it’s probably mainly a somatic issue.
I’m sorry that you feel this way too…
I just wanna fit in
this is a common misconception, but if you are trans, having the wrong hormones suppressed and the right hormones through HRT can actually directly improve mood and mental well-being, my depression and anxiety went away from taking estrogen alone (without any body changes)