they was tryed to fix my gender thru schizophrenia treatment(evrn for schizopheria is too hard)
fluvoxamine 2024 july -> december up to 175mg
alimemazine 2024 july -> august idk dose
risperidone 2024 august -> september (because i tried to start HRT lol) -> prolactinoma(does they fucked my undeveloped breasts? they didmt grow much but also can be genetic)
aripiprazol 2024 september -> december up to 30 mg
promazine -> only two pills, mom decided that is too hard doctor decision
hydroxyzine -> 2024 autumn idk how much since forced
lurasidone -> 2024 december up to 120 mg, stopped 20 mg only 3 months ago
clomipramine -> 2024 december -> 2025 april, up to 75 mg
valproic acid -> 2024 december -> 2026 january, up to 1500 mg
phenibut -> 2024 december -> 2025 march, placebo dose 500mg
hopantenic acid -> dont remember much but def was in 2025 autumn
acetazolamide -> dont remember much
emoxypine -> spring 2025, also autumn 2025
piracetam -> dont remwmber
sertraline -> may 2025 -> still taking and tapering(and feeling only better!)
testosterone -> by body itself from 12 yo up to 15.9 yo
now i still have muscle rigidgy shit idk
i got chemical&psychological CPTSD, thank you mom i will kill you someday
i got strong desire to soft recreational drugs by last 7 month, even if i feel good, a very good i still wanna some euphoric chemical(i got addicted to some of bumped drugs? i got damaged receptors from antipsychotics? or its ADHD?) (never did recreational drugs since i strong controlled by parents and govrenment)
tapering “medicines” -> feeling only better
why every right wing “doctor” propaganda scream about forever addiction and tolerance to any drug, but noone doctor screams about forever antipsychptic brain damage?
i tried to fix post-antipsychotic muscle shit via tizanidine which is a2-adrengenic receptor agonist GOT DEVELOPED TOLERANCE IN FEW DAY!!! upped dose, GOT DEVELOPED TOLERANCE again, possibly my a2 receptor damaged by ANTAGONIST antipsychotics(all, lurasidone, risperidone, aripiprazol etc) since that fast tolerance weird for standart doses of this med
how long my brain receptors recovery will take? when my CNS get repaired
oh shit mom said only recently while i was on high lurasidone, valproate
i have seizures at night? i was randomly sitting while still sleep also motor movements
it was in 2025 but mom said only now, a real faschist this a inssne
atleast brain mri pretty normal, but sure my receptors are fucked…
also i realized that after psychiatric “treatment” i was a lot more dysphoric and brainwormed but body isnt changed
only estradiol helped me a lot mentally, now also prog
atleast still getting better and better also thanks to girl who helping me a lot even thru continents, she helps a lot a lot
Omg, that’s awful, I’m so sorry :((
You don’t deserve that
Is there any way you can leave, or are you stuck there?
sadly cant, i pretty disablish w audhd, i cant properly typical work, get typical education, and its big risk of harrasment not because transness but also because my autistic weirdness(i get harrasment whole life due that)
i cant do fcking bureacracy, i cant gain big money, i cant leave my cats, i cant sadly everything, pretty stuck here w dumb parents which doesnt really desire to leave together especially to west countries
yuh parents get a less n less dumb and getting better, but still i cant get proper understanding from them(i too autistic for lawful neurotypical person)
i cant get proper treatment huuuuh
getting a true psycho meds = impossible, but also inlogical after being bumped by everything
but they prescribe soft russian underresearched antipsychotic alimemazine(neuroleptic as they love say) TO ALL FCKING PATIENTS even w soft depression
antipsychotics to anyone who dont need it
but stimulants are never was legal, so adhd is problematic, adhd is unfun aaaaaaaaa,
ppl get 20 year prison for ordering simple bupropion from internet
from muscle relaxants which i need now, tru science is only tizanidine, clonidine is strong controlled and nobody will prescribe it, baclofen yeah recently, cyclobenzaprin i cant due taking sertraline, usually they prescribe soviet bloc shit such as tolperisone for anyone(fun but is pretty expensive too)
Just wanted to express some validation for your experience. Big hugs and hope it gets better.
mrpmrprmprmrprmprm
I’m sorry, bb. I have psychiatric treatment damage too. Its awful. 🫂
very very pain aaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaa🫂😭
I’m sorry you have to go through all of that, wow all those pharmas must be tough on your receptors for sure. I don’t have a definite answer for your science wise I can just give you my experience as a former addict, it took me about a year to get back to close to baseline with proper self care. I realized I was barely taking care of myself before because of all the dysphoria. I hope you can live in peace soon, hugs
huh, my new psychiatrist did a ton of errors for me, such as major valproate overdose, above my weight/mg ratio and it give expouse of psoriasis to body(i have only on head), even when i not bipolar or schizo and he didnt put any diagnosis besided gender identity disorder(holy icd-10), depressive episode), did massive error prescribing lurasidone with antidepressant(the past ones doing high dose lura with strong TCA was insanely mentally ill), which basically leads to hypomania(yuh i speak too much and didnt control much words), he doing sertraline movements by 50mg but i sensitive to it
valproate can mess up with hormones too!!! in a good and bad way at same time (it have some anti-androgen effect, but also worsening estradiol metabolism, todo links later), but hopefully is only when you take this shit and i fixed it(i have very good sentivity to estrogen based on shbg responce(insentive get standalone 30 nmol even with 3000 pg estradiol, but i got responce to a 150 nmol only on 200 pg (yeah this is due gel peaks but still insane) plus i get pretty strong HPG suppression
also the psych on latuda withdrawal said get back after 3 days but i just get worse mood
it have very long halflife!!!
and also he insane putting from 20mg to 0, i did 10mg drop and didnt feel different(was ready todo 5 mg droppings but pill was very small)
also he doesnt want help my muscle shit, and redirecting to neurologist
also very stupid psychotherapy from him
hopefully i completly stopped going to him at all, and i going to taper sertraline anyway, even if i will need prescribtion i can go to any other neurologist/psychiatrist
interesting but 50 mg less sertraline in few days, feels a looot better, less flat, I GOT APPETITE AGAIN, but isnt depressive even when sensory/muscle shit killing me soososos much
also idk that possible or not with new tizanidine pack i dont get ANYTHING AT ALL, possible that pharmacy did wrong temperature regime?, this a sirdalud from sandoz slovenia(? didnt remember), but the raw substance is from china(i did look at govrenment med database), will try teva next time w czech republic raw substance
also i know which russian pharmas estradiol raw using!!! its from some china pharma
I have no idea how some doctors keep their licenses wow. I just wanna say be very careful with tapering, I’m sure you will be but I just wanna make sure you’re safe, I’m glad you got your appetite back that’s great!
The real key is to not expect a great improvement, or if you start to feel better and then feel worse again one day, don’t let it discourage you too much because it will get better eventually
Yeah I dunno, I used to buy a lot of nootropics online and they all came from China, as far as I know everything was legit, at least it didn’t kill me :P, but that was years ago. stay safe
nah is just russian medicine, real doctors will lose their lisence and possibly go to prison
yeah i dont expect improvement, but is def like always just same state
the worse - better state, depends on fcking muscle state aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
yeah china is pretty legit especially if its bigpharma where even western bigpharma buys raw substances, but there a def awful worker rights in china, buuut eastern europe is better? nah
russian bigpharma only buys at india/china and never do own, and they say IS OUR MEEEMDSSDSD!!! saying our meds != just pill press ready raw powder
european big pharma is often use china/india too, but usually a western EU stuff
zoloft raws is from puerto rico fuuun (also fun that govrenment dont keep that data censored, but its openly available at med registry grls.rosminzdrav.ru)
Fuuuuuck.
very((
