i feel broken
NSFWi just dont know what to do anymore. i have a healthy sex drive, i meet people i like, i have sex with them, and it just never really feels that good. i meet girls who can just cum and cum, and i can only seem to do it at home by myself… and even then its so fucking hard. it doesnt matter if i masturbate or not, how into the person or situation i am, no matter what i do or they do. im literally crying writing this. i had the best experience of my life the other day, by a lot, and i still couldn’t cum. im just so tired… i want to enjoy it like other people do but i just cant. i feel like im broken and theres nothing i can do to fix it, and somehow things got worse when i started estrogen. prog just makes me hornier but doesnt make things feel better. it feels like theres nothing left to do so this is just screaming into the void because i have no one in my life to talk to about this stuff. fuck… fucking fuck…
Normally I wouldn’t say someone is a transmed for using language like that because pre-op, post-op, and non-op are common language used in the community to self-describe different stages people are at when it comes to surgical transition or even whether they want to. However they have expressed transmedicalist views towards me directly so your concerns are 100% justified due to their past behavior which has not changed.