• Nepenthe@kbin.social
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    I’m sorry someone was heavy-handed with you. It’s a bummer they blew an opportunity for a good dialogue. I think in some communities calling someone “stupid” is correctly not allowed, so I’d need a little more context, but calling people “stupid” is also pretty common.

    Trying to dig through a couple years of notifications for proof mostly just told me I got a LOT more awards than I realized, and I eventually gave up. But it wasn’t aimed at someone else, or I wouldn’t have had a problem with being reprimanded for it. I make it a point to try to be as civil as I can be, and I was literally being derogatory towards myself.

    I am not allowed to be mean…to me…for fear of being ostracized. This decision was stupid enough that I pretty much just consented to say whatever I stood by from now on, since all punishment was being treated like a toy anyway. As a generally anxious person, I consider it a significant character improvement if we’re being honest.

    I should thank you as well, and I’m glad this didn’t just devolve into the standard internet interaction, since I was originally only seeing it from my angle and we did definitely start on the wrong foot. I think after spending so much time on kbin, the shock of checking up on my one kebble sub and seeing how deliberately shitty the kind of places I used to frequent really were really stood out to me a LOT. As in, there are subs I used to check frequently that I would block if they came here.

    It would take a lot to make me start slinging insults at anyone except myself, but I recognize there’s a fine line between “enjoys debate” and “tends to pick fights” and I’ve been making conscious efforts not to bring the performative reddit snark over here. I still have to deliberately backspace over things now and again and edit things that came out unintentionally harsh the first time, but it’s the person I prefer being.

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      1 year ago

      Man you are insightful, truly. If I look at my old comments I’ve clearly engaged in my own “Reddit performative snark” over here (Kbin for me). I appreciate your helping me notice that. I’m glad we corrected the course of our conversation here and I look forward to many great ones in the future. Thanks for sharing all this.

      Funny to see you with the Loki take by the way. Didn’t realize you were the same person.

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        As much time as I spend thinking about social motivations/interactions, I’m a little aggravated at myself that I let it get to me as much as I have. It really shows to me how insidious it can be. People only really interacted with each other to prove their opponent was wrong and stupid and bad, and because doing this was the easiest way to be rewarded on reddit, of course that’s going to make it seep into things.

        Being a dick is a fun activity that makes you a part of a group, and humans love being liked more than they love most things in this world. Being empathetic just makes you feel really bad and kind of confused. By making me consider the other side, you’re making me feel bad >:(

        So the rare times I got downvoted a lot, it was usually me telling people to look after/stop being assholes to each other. Sarcastic know-it-all comments? Popular if they were short and quippy, unpopular if they were long and academic. People like to be liked, and if you want most social media platforms to like you, you have to be really mean and borderline illiterate.

        Funny to see you with the Loki take by the way. Didn’t realize you were the same person.

        I’d been meaning to respond to this thread for maybe a full day before I saw you around over there, and that was apparently the reminder I needed. It was amusing. This place has already gotten large enough in a month that I’ve lost track of some people I used to see positively everywhere, and knowing that’s the way of things makes me a bit sad, but I’ll enjoy being able to recognize people while I can. I look forward to it too, I hope you have a nice weekend :)