I run a small community here on db0 where I post images of the AI horde and one of the users I recently banned decided to come back on another account and spam me with hateful messages, saying they think I’m pretending to be trans and that they think I’m a pedophile. They also decided to come back again after getting banned for that and spam posts in every meta community about how they think I’m a pedophile and deserve to be banned. I don’t care what your opinions of AI are, that’s not acceptable. It’s not okay to accuse people of being pedophiles or accuse them of pretending to be trans.
This is one of the worst days ever in a long time. I’m having a drink tonight, screw sobriety, I need it.
Sometimes you need a drink, and that’s okay. I consider myself “sober” but don’t and haven’t ever abstained entirely. I don’t want it to have that power over me honestly.
I’m sorry that happened though OP, you shouldn’t ever feel like you have to prove your transness to anyone!
I’m happy if you have a healthy relationship with alcohol. Some people can handle a drink, and let that be that. But some of us don’t have that ability. It’s like saying “I’ll just do one point of meth” it’s not going to be just the one. Eventually it’ll be so much that you can ruin your health, friendships, careers, etc.
I just worry that if I start drinking again I’ll begin spiraling like I did before, it was scary. I once woke up in the hospital with a police officer next to me who told me he found me face down in the gutter on the side of the road and almost thought I was dead. If he hadn’t found me that night I might’ve been.
I don’t really have the tolerance I used to anymore it seems since I ended up throwing up a lot when I tried drinking some of my old vodka. I don’t know how many shots it was since I used a full glass but I didn’t even get through two and a half glasses before throwing up.