You only think that because you still buy into some childhood training that God is real, it’s really clear this isn’t so by a simple collection of evidence. As a former high ranking Christian mystic I can tell you, you can replace God and Jesus with rocks and it wouldn’t make a difference, a lot of my training turned out to be hypnotizing people. Which the church incidentally forbid participating in secular hypnotizing of any kind, training or being subject to. But also liminal state group think type of stuff. It’s a bummer they turned a perfectly good self and group growth tool and all they do with it is rip off desperate people for money. What a stupid goal…