I reached out to the rescue contact and explained the trapping difficulties, said I could try and detain the cat in the house for a chip scan and maybe foster.
But the pressure to keep him was intense and she even straight up said he would help me get over Melbcat. I was halfway through setting up a quarantine area with an enclosure but got overwhelmed and had a bit of a breakdown.
Going mental
I was dreaming of paying for more operations for a still living Melbcat, taking shady abusive jobs and pretending she was another cat for discounts to afford them. Yeah I’m really not mentally okay.
Then just now I wanted to do the neglected dishes with the mini dishwasher I never got around to selling. Who cares if they’re covered in soap after, I’m not very hungry. I just want them cleaned and put away. …It broke.
Edit: Black cat came by again
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so I was able to give food and apply this month’s spot on. But he hissed when I gently picked him up a few inches off the ground. He was also most distressed by the paper collar, dodging and more hissing while I tried to put it on him. It’s on, without even restraining him because I’m just that deft.
But yes, he sat around being angry about the collar for a minute and he’s now run off quite pissed with me. There’s been a rupture of trust.
I’m now less confident about quarantine or fostering, and if he went into the system the hissing risks him being put down.
about the dishes, when miss seagoon stayed she wanted Fairy dishwashing tablets, said they worked better , and rinse aid
here’s the thing, I rinse all the gunk off dishes before hand, she doesn’t
I have been using eco brands that have no perfumes
I was really put off by the strong perfumes in the main brands
so you are not alone in this and not OCD, it really is unacceptable how strongly perfumed every thing is
and black cat is ok, he is still figuring things out, Bill hid and wouldn’t let anyone touch him for six weeks. Now he’s devoted to everyone and we to him. Black cat will be ok. As will you. 😘
The dishwasher threw an E4 error and won’t stop making a pumping noise even after off and on, probably overfilled due to a sensor error. Maybe flooded something internal. May not resolve and I don’t want to risk trying to repair it myself. I probably can’t sell it now and third party = warranty nightmare if it’s still valid. If it doesn’t work again I’ll dispose of it when I get time and take the loss.
I don’t know what to do with him. I’m busy cleaning but will print the posters and ask for help sticking them up. I may assemble the enclosure just to have an emergency spot ready if he gets injured or cannot stay out there, but I need to slow my roll and likely can’t keep him.
I hope today is a better day. You’re allowed to be firm with the rescue person. They probably mean well and don’t know how stressful this is for you. ‘I can’t right now, and please don’t pressure me further’ is perfectly ok to say.
It wasn’t a good one yesterday.
Cat rescue
I reached out to the rescue contact and explained the trapping difficulties, said I could try and detain the cat in the house for a chip scan and maybe foster.
But the pressure to keep him was intense and she even straight up said he would help me get over Melbcat. I was halfway through setting up a quarantine area with an enclosure but got overwhelmed and had a bit of a breakdown.
Going mental
I was dreaming of paying for more operations for a still living Melbcat, taking shady abusive jobs and pretending she was another cat for discounts to afford them. Yeah I’m really not mentally okay.
Then just now I wanted to do the neglected dishes with the mini dishwasher I never got around to selling. Who cares if they’re covered in soap after, I’m not very hungry. I just want them cleaned and put away. …It broke.
Edit: Black cat came by again
spoiler
so I was able to give food and apply this month’s spot on. But he hissed when I gently picked him up a few inches off the ground. He was also most distressed by the paper collar, dodging and more hissing while I tried to put it on him. It’s on, without even restraining him because I’m just that deft.
But yes, he sat around being angry about the collar for a minute and he’s now run off quite pissed with me. There’s been a rupture of trust.
I’m now less confident about quarantine or fostering, and if he went into the system the hissing risks him being put down.
Edit: He pulled the paper collar off.
hugs
about the dishes, when miss seagoon stayed she wanted Fairy dishwashing tablets, said they worked better , and rinse aid
here’s the thing, I rinse all the gunk off dishes before hand, she doesn’t
I have been using eco brands that have no perfumes
I was really put off by the strong perfumes in the main brands
so you are not alone in this and not OCD, it really is unacceptable how strongly perfumed every thing is
and black cat is ok, he is still figuring things out, Bill hid and wouldn’t let anyone touch him for six weeks. Now he’s devoted to everyone and we to him. Black cat will be ok. As will you. 😘
Most of the time I’d rather smell the odour than the perfume.
The dishwasher threw an E4 error and won’t stop making a pumping noise even after off and on, probably overfilled due to a sensor error. Maybe flooded something internal. May not resolve and I don’t want to risk trying to repair it myself. I probably can’t sell it now and third party = warranty nightmare if it’s still valid. If it doesn’t work again I’ll dispose of it when I get time and take the loss.
I don’t know what to do with him. I’m busy cleaning but will print the posters and ask for help sticking them up. I may assemble the enclosure just to have an emergency spot ready if he gets injured or cannot stay out there, but I need to slow my roll and likely can’t keep him.
maybe just keep doing what you’re doing with him
Maybe. I just find the status quo pretty stressful with the ringworm
I hope today is a better day. You’re allowed to be firm with the rescue person. They probably mean well and don’t know how stressful this is for you. ‘I can’t right now, and please don’t pressure me further’ is perfectly ok to say.