Mentions of dead pets and just depresso posting. It's not super triggering, but I thought I'd hide it just in case.
God I don’t want to go to work. But I have to. I just hope my boss sends me home. My chest feels super heavy, I hate this. Gonna try and keep my depressed postings to a minimum not to be a bringer of sadness. And what sucks even more with the benefits of ADHD, one of them is just forgetting people exist. Like it won’t occur to me that I have a Dad until someone mentions him or their Dad and I’ll be like “oh I haven’t spoken to him recently” (I did last night, he was apologetic). It’s even worse when people or animals pass away, like my Grandpa passed in 2019 and I’ll forget about him until I remember and then I have to go through the grieving process again.
Update: went to work and started bawling. He told me to go home. I’ll see how I feel tomorrow. But I’m just going to play Starfield and hug my cats.
Okay so editing a post on mobile that has spoilers wrecks the coding. Interesting.
I was utterly devastated when we had to put down our dog for lymphoma. I was a wreck. Three years on I still tear up when I think about losing him (even right note writing this). I have to think of the joy he brought me and how that love and joy outweighs the pain of losing him. It’s the only thing that vaguely helps. Sending you hugs and care.
Certainly not fun times indeed. Thank you very much for all your love. I really appreciate it. Playing Starfield is taking my mind off of things, but funnily enough I got food in the game called Chocolate Labs, and man… (For context my dog is/was a chocolate lab).
He mentioned that he appreciated me coming into work but yeah he offered to either work from home or take today off. So I went with taking today off. I think tomorrow I’ll work from home.
Mentions of dead pets and just depresso posting. It's not super triggering, but I thought I'd hide it just in case.
God I don’t want to go to work. But I have to. I just hope my boss sends me home. My chest feels super heavy, I hate this. Gonna try and keep my depressed postings to a minimum not to be a bringer of sadness. And what sucks even more with the benefits of ADHD, one of them is just forgetting people exist. Like it won’t occur to me that I have a Dad until someone mentions him or their Dad and I’ll be like “oh I haven’t spoken to him recently” (I did last night, he was apologetic). It’s even worse when people or animals pass away, like my Grandpa passed in 2019 and I’ll forget about him until I remember and then I have to go through the grieving process again.
Update: went to work and started bawling. He told me to go home. I’ll see how I feel tomorrow. But I’m just going to play Starfield and hug my cats.
Okay so editing a post on mobile that has spoilers wrecks the coding. Interesting.
I was utterly devastated when we had to put down our dog for lymphoma. I was a wreck. Three years on I still tear up when I think about losing him (even right note writing this). I have to think of the joy he brought me and how that love and joy outweighs the pain of losing him. It’s the only thing that vaguely helps. Sending you hugs and care.
hugs, you’re having a rough time lately, it will get better 🤗
Certainly not fun times indeed. Thank you very much for all your love. I really appreciate it. Playing Starfield is taking my mind off of things, but funnily enough I got food in the game called Chocolate Labs, and man… (For context my dog is/was a chocolate lab).
Just as something to discuss, have you happened to have had the chance to try out Armored Core 6?
If there’s anything I love about games when I’m in the mood it’s a nice little vehicle for escapism.
Nahh not my thing sadly. But have heard that it got pretty good reviews, especially for a game in a pretty dormant series.
Good on your boss, I’m glad he understood the situation. Processing it when it’s fresh (when possible) is better in the long run
He mentioned that he appreciated me coming into work but yeah he offered to either work from home or take today off. So I went with taking today off. I think tomorrow I’ll work from home.
Sending you my love - you self-care to the max. 💜💜💜