guolai [he/him, they/them]

I still use Tumblr. Short story from my own experience is that it very much sucks but with a very lib-slanted paint-job. Staff makes no effort to hide that it regularly targets POC and trans bloggers. There are alot of prominent Zionist bloggers still on there, and the few leftists you might find on there unfortunately engages in a lot of ugly clique bullying which can range from understandable (sometime a take is geniunely bad) to overblown and needlessly cruel in response.

Oh and yeah, alot of smug and condescending libs in between all of this.

I got Hasan Piker .-.

going to see a psychiatrist and hopefully get medication for ADHD tomorrow in preperation for a school that I don’t like but I have to take because.

but anyway, yay new THE READ.

Was rewatching GatesOfKilikien’s videos on the Sixteen Kingdoms period, got curious to see if there were any new comments, found some from two months ago with some…cringey right wing slant.

I wonder if one of those dipshit right wing reactors reacted to his videos? Luckily, it seems like they didn’t stick too long to the rest of the Sixteen Kingdom videos.

I probably need to get high to understand this tbh but okay, I guess that make sense?

Did some farmwork (mostly gathering leaves in a bag) to distract myself. I am pooped. On the other hand, Raichu X getting Electric Surge and Raichu Y getting No Guard (with Zap Cannon and Focus Blast) is wild.

Watching Seanie Dew’s 100% Graveyard Keeper, and without resorting to bad vibes arguments, the game just doesn’t seem like it’s for me. Negativity aside though, I managed to slightly reconnect with a friend I driven away a few month prior when I was having a bad crashout and a new trailer for Dynasty Warriors 3 Remastered released, so that’s good.

It took me three hours before what you said finally clicked with me. I was thinking like “when did Big Yellow ever said this? What is it in reference of?”

Watching Big Yellow Streams.

That’s so badass. Hope he is resting well.

Will I one day find the strength to accept harsh things (or harsh texts in this day and age) and move on as opposed to wallowing in quagmire? I feel like a lib in certain cases where the way people word things angers me despite their content being factual or at least hits me in a way that seems true.

In any case, I’ll read some yuri to cheer me up.

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Trying to make an effort to have a little bit more skin when I get discomfort from a disagreement, hopefully I try to prevent those cases from haunting me like I have been humiliated by someone expressing something I don’t agree with.

At least I can access Hexbear on the computer, idk why I can’t on my phone for some reason.

I woke up, doomscrolled, and now I am sad.

I saw a video on the drama on full odds shiny hunting, and it was informative on understanding rare values but I don’t think I will ever get the value of full odds with all the avaliable methods that cuts down on valuable time resources within the getting the actual pokemon without outright genning it.

A small update. I felt better about the tumblr stuff after talking with a friend about it. Still a bit of a bummer overall but it felt good how a little chat lifted up my mood.

They are so paranoid about everything. Unhealthy settler state.

sad about some meaningless tumblr bs but it is compounded by the last two days just being awful for me.