Bit of Cloudflare instability today.
Took a walk today and am now resting with Melbcat curled into me as the little spoon.
I’ve sorted her specialist appointment and am waiting for it to roll around.
Edit: Crocheting and hopping around finding something to watch. Melbcat got up to lie on the carpet… I’m fidgety and bored
I wish I could find more people that used to live the way I did and got out, and live normal lives.
I’ve been looking for a long, long time.
Everyone from that world who gets out becomes an acolyte of the 12 step program. That’s not for me and those people and I don’t get along.
It would be nice to talk to someone who gets it.
Goodnight all ♥️
Hope this isn’t intrusive but I have decent google fu.
https://www.addictionhelp.com/recovery/smart-recovery/ (More recent link)
It might be geared more at people that aren’t out yet but hopefully some made it out and still go for maintenance support 🤞
I will say though that CBT isn’t for everyone either - also avoid the ‘find treatment now’ buttons on the second site and go directly to the meeting links, as Better Help is known to be dodgy as hell.
Hmm I’m just thinking, maybe you could start a Meetup group?
I would love to hear your story one day though! It takes a lot to get out of living that way. I wish I could do something to help people in those situations but I feel like it’s got to come from within. Could be wrong though.
Witch is right, no one can help you till you decide to stop.
I didn’t really have a lot of help, but I think that worked in my favour. No safety net means no room for error.
I might write my story up one day, or shoot me a message.
You are not wrong. It does have to come from within. Help matters once the journey out has started. Nothing and no one other than the person themselves can do the actual starting.
Indeed. And even then, having help can be dangerous. I’ve seen a lot of people with caring families fail because they always had a safety net of sorts.
I am so tired, sorry I’m not more active here
goodnight, sweet dreams everyone 😘
Have a good sleep
Turned on lossless on Spotify. There is a very clear positive difference in audio quality and not in a gold-plated-audio-cable kind of way. Sounds very full and detailed – pumping bass and very crispy hi-hats. Didn’t know what I was missing.
I’ve got my quality setting on very high (320kbps), do you think lossless makes a big difference? I did want to turn the setting on but I download my music so much more storage needed for lossless.
There are separate quality settings for streaming vs downloading, and you can set it per device*, would those fix the issue?
I’ve noticed that the caching will always choose the highest quality available, so I can’t easily flip back and forth between qualities to compare and give you a “big difference” answer. I am definitely noticing more in the low end – bass guitar/cello/kicks are all much more present in the mix. But I can do without that when I’m listening on my phone while out and about. At home with unlimited streaming its no problem.
*Edit: I think
I’m still buzzed/happy from the Young Seagoons visit. The bonds have never been stronger. 😊💖They are lovely people.
And you raised them! You’re a lovely person, Seagoon. They get it from you <3
Some random sketchy dude walked past my flat, came back and peered inside, and claimed to be looking for someone. I growled at him until he left and called the cops. Gfdi.
Come to think of it I heard a sus amount of noise outside earlier but thought it was the black cat. Who knows.
Nights like these I wish I was larger. But it seems I did manage to spook him.
Right. I’m a bit drunk after the local trivia night.
TIKA THE IGGY
^HOWEVER.
Fuck people who use their pets are social media props. Like absolutely fuck them.
I followed Tika the Iggy for a few years - until her owners acquired a new Iggy while acknowledging alongside that Tika was starting to age. It felt like their were preparing Tika to die and needed a back up in the wings. I stopped following them because something about introducing the new Iggy gave me the ick.
I was so happy when I saw late last month that they were celebrating Tika’s retirement - almost like they were celebrating the opportunities Tika had brought them while giving Tika some peace - no more traveling, no more spotlight… except Tika died very early November. I cannot imagine what decisions her family went to leading up to that and I cannot imagination what small children have following up.
However… having having the new Iggy make her international red carpet less than a month later sounded so cold hearted that I just can’t even. I don’t want to believe they’re using props to make up for Tika, but the costumes they’ve had Kala in just break my heart.
I want to believe in Tika/Kala’s parents. Really! But I can’t.^
Also, I drank like a lot of red wine tonight, so I’m not mad at myself for getting passionate about this.
Two new people at my co-working space having a Teams meeting on speaker and playing videos out loud. Put up with it for 30 minutes. Then went over and asked them to please stop playing videos from their computer on speaker loudly as it’s distracting to my work, and there are free meeting pods around if you need to make noise. No sorry, no speaking at all, just looked at me and each other like I was crazy for confronting them. Amazing how inconsiderate people can be.
They immediately packed up and moved someone else.
They immediately packed up and moved someone else.
A win. I cracked it at a family holding up the line for the tunnel walk on Sunday. They didn’t have their QR codes up and traffic was backing up. Dad was trying to be all just give me a minute until I loudly encouraged him to step aside while he learned to use his phone. He gave me the dirtiest look but stepped aside.
We need more shit like that called out publicly. I don’t hesitate when some idiot needs to be confronted. Public humiliation is a powerful tool.
The old me would have stayed quiet and put up with it, but not anymore.
I’ve also learned my lesson to call this behaviour out quickly. There’s a group of people from a business (not here today) who have been members longer than me who are so loud, so disruptive, and essentially untouchable (management won’t confront them after I complained). They also know they’re bothering me when I’m here and give no shits. So as soon as there’s a new disruptive group, I approach very quickly to teach some workplace etiquette they should already know.
Wankers like that in the workplace feel so much worse. I expect more from adults, and yet…constant disappointment. Good on you for evolving :)
I cracked the shits at a builder next door playing shit techno at full blast few days ago.
I like techno, but not that sort of techno, particularly when you’re angle grinding rebar.
Haven’t played it since lol.
I won that round.
Travelling again for work so another slightly dodgy breakfast but I got to hang out with this absolute legend
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Wow I want your job! Probably very much a grass is greener sort of thing though.
Oh yes…I then spent all day in small rooms talking my guts out to people!
They’re so funny and curious about people. Almost like if dogs were birds
I bought some cheap jeans from Kmart which were too wide in the legs, so have taken the legs in by a couple of inches and hemmed them to a sensible height. They are now presentable enough to wear for general stuff like gardening and dog walking, even if they are never going to be high fashion. It’s good to have the sewing space useable, even if it does need a lot more sorting still - the table is covered with fabric that needs to be put away once I can figure out where.
5 hours sleep in a row!!!
Oh fuck yes!
it’s nice to know what it feels like to be rested 😊
I’m up. Time to see the young seagoon’s off on the rest of their trip overseas to see other fam.
I will miss them so much 😭
What an awesome adventure they’ll be having though! So glad you got a bit of time with them!
🥲
Here’s another thing I don’t get: Influencers that are just like a regular person. I can understand following rich people or people that were famous for something once. But I saw one woman who just lives in a 100 year old house and is renovating it kind of. I can understand if someone has an online presence about something, but there are people who are just there and don’t seem to have any particular niche or angle.
I saw one woman who just lives in a 100 year old house and is renovating it
That sounds mildly interesting (to me)
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The rest of the influencers are pretty pointless though
I don’t have TikTok, but I follow an old blog that does a weekly TikTok round up and the “influencer” shit that gets talked about and blows up just baffles me so fuckin’ much.
I almost don’t mind listening to influencer drama because it’s all so decoupled from reality and anything significant it just feels like short stories about the stupidest people you’ve ever heard of
That’s true, probably why I read the post every week. It’s crazy what people get themselves in a tizzy over. And what people are freakin’ willing to film themselves doing. Like GET A BRAIN.
I think there’s a big difference between people who set out to be “influencers” and people who just do what they want that’s maybe a little different and film it or just want to share.
Meaningless observations/waffling on because I'm bored at work
Yesterday I came across a lady who’s turning her Boston apartment into a 1980’s Malibu style place. I have friends who watch mount bikers. Boyo used to keep up with a couple who were restoring a yacht to live on. I think the people who do these things on hope of getting famous piss me off, but the people who are just doing something a little out there and filming it are fine by me. I follow an instagram of a guy who’s adopted a whole bunch of senior dogs and really appreciate that whenever people ask to send him donations he’s always “no thanks, I’ve got this”. Made respect to him vs people who buy dogs and dress them up in order to beg for views.
Jenna something? My ex used to watch her because he wanted to renovate a house one day and kind of got me onto it. But the regular people, I think people want to relate to others and feel “connected”. Rich people are far removed from them.
One of the teams in the building had a new guy join 2 weeks ago and clocked the team leader’s bullshit with in a couple of days. Come in this morning and his work phone and keys are on his desk and my manager confirmed he’d resigned last night, can’t wait to hear how the team leader spins this one. I’m guessing “he just couldn’t handle it” as opposed to what we all know is the truth (the team leader is an asshole).
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Omg it’s working now?!
Your mum’s working, how 'bout that? Cash me outside
She retired a couple years ago akshually
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